Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Lost and Found

I am sitting in a new room on 3W - the bone marrow unit at dad's hospital. We had had an emotional few days. Yesterday, Dad's numbers soared high enough for him to be released from the hospital. Today, after a fainting spell, he was readmitted to the hospital for an indefinite amount of time. We are all pretty exhausted from the roller coaster of emotions cancer carries.


This morning, I woke Austin up early to get ready for school.

"Mom, I am so tired. Let's just sleep." He said without even opening his eyes.

I am used to Austin's morning drama, as he already acts like a teenager in the mornings - pulling his covers over his head and begging for more sleep.

"Austin, today is St. Patrick's Day." I replied. "Maybe you will have a special treat at school." I hoped that my term "special treat" would somehow lure the little one into the light of day.

He paused for a second. "Mom," he replied. "There is no St. Patrick in my class... and even if he did come today... and even if he did bring cupcakes for his birthday, I would rather just stay home with you."

"Well, okay!" I said, as we both rolled back over and went back to sleep.

Two hours later (!!!), Austin woke up and was ready for his history lesson.


I didn't mind sleeping in this morning myself as we both had a late night getting dad situated into his "transitional apartment." As I type this now, Mom is back at the apartment packing up her belongings once again for hospital life. Dad has been pushed away to the ends of the hospital for CT scans and x-rays. Please keep praying.


This past weekend, we were able to spend some time in G'ville visiting James. We had a wonderful weekend and I wanted to share some pictures of life before the craziness this week.




As I put Austin to bed the last night in G'ville, he begged me to lay down and sing to him. I sang a few standard bedtime songs and got ready to leave.

"Momma," Austin pleaded. "You haven't sung the lost and found song yet."

"Lost and found song???" I replied. "Austin, I have no idea what in the world you are talking about."

"Mom, you know. The lost and found song. It is one of your favorites."

I thought hard and sudden realization came to me.

"Oh, of course, buddy. You are right. I haven't sung the lost and found song yet."

Amazing Grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost
but now am found
was blind but now I see...

Someday soon, I pray that we will all see clearly through the midst of today's trials. Right now we only see dimly... someday we shall see face to face!


Karen said...

what an amazing gift God has given you in that sweet, thoughtful, fun little man! So glad you share him with us! And glad you are singing the "lost and found" song!

Anonymous said...

From the mouth of a child,how lost we were till God found us. I remember Megan saying things like that. You cherish those memories, one day he'll be grown and you can remind him of those moments. Sorry to hear about your dad. You;re in our prayers. Transpalnt is a roller coaster. God is in control.

DT Boy said...

My boys get upset if I don't sing Amazing Grace to them at night. It does not matter what other songs I might sing but that one is a must.